Calmness
As much as I love the sunshine and summer, I really love those overcast dreary days. I love the smell of rain and saltwater on the beach, the cool greens and blues, and the slow down that it often brings. We were visiting family in Seattle Washington a while ago and I had one of the most calming and just happy moments of my life. Nothing significant happened. I was just fully in the moment. Watching my son talk about all the big sticks he was finding, and seeing my husband help my girls maneuver around all the debris on the cold and cool waterfront of Bainbridge Island. I could feel my heart almost beating out of my chest with the love I had for every single thing in sight in that moment. I share this because this is how I feel about adoption. That same full heart that is almost bursting. Love for a wonderfully selfless and strong birth mother that I can't wait to meet. The love for a child that I don't yet know, but has somehow made my heart swell already. I don't know anything about this part of my life yet other than that unexplainable love that I feel. I feel it so strongly that it almost takes my breath away at times. When I think about our future and what adoption is going to look like for us I don't have any specific answers. I just don't know what will happen. But I know that it will work out and we will meet who we are supposed to. Because I have that same calmness in my soul and I can't wait to see what lies ahead.